When I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder my heart sank! I didn’t want to have it. It was too close to schizophrenia for me to like it. I see things that aren’t there. And I hear voices that aren’t real. This on top of my bipolar can make life “interesting” to say the least.
Mostly, I hear voices that attack me. Things like: “Go ahead and kill yourself”, “No one loves you.”, “No one needs you around.”, etc. When I get really depressed the voices become angry and try to convince me to kill myself. It’s awful.
I take Zyprexa for my voices and visions. I don’t have them much any more. It’s rare to have a hallucination these days. But still knowing that I have schizoaffective disorder hurts. If you want to know more about this topic…comment and I will write more.